Facing Regret After a Difficult Choice & Embracing My Faith Journey

Assalamu alaikum everyone. I wanted to share something that’s been heavy on my heart. A while back, I was in a situation where I became pregnant and had a chance to get married, but I ended up ending the pregnancy. Later, the brother left. Honestly, I’m really wrestling with a lot of 'what if' thoughts. I wasn’t raised Muslim; my first real connection to Islam was through that brother. Looking back, my decision wasn’t about one reason but a bunch of things all mixed together. Sometimes it’s tough to accept how one choice can totally change the path of your life. Alhamdulillah, I have no intention of ever being in a haram relationship again. When that situation started, I wasn’t a Muslim yet and honestly knew nothing about Islam. That isn’t an excuse, just how it was at the time. It’s hard not to think about him or the life we might have had, but it’s been nearly a year and I know I can’t keep living stuck in the past. Now, I’ve been learning how to pray and I make dua every night, asking Allah to help me move on and to forgive me for ending the pregnancy. I realize that if I had trusted in Allah completely back then, I would have chosen differently. The hardest but most important lesson from this is that, even though it hurts to think about the 'what ifs,' it constantly reminds me why zina is something we must avoid. I know no one can promise these feelings will just disappear, but I’m wondering if there’s any other mental or spiritual effort I can do alongside my duas to help leave this in the past. It’s like there’s this alternate life playing in my head every day, and my heart struggles to accept that I let it go and it’s gone for good. May Allah make it easy for anyone else going through pain and regret.