Confused About My Feelings

Assalamu alaikum. I'm not sure where else to turn, so I'm sharing my heart here. I'm a Muslim sister, and the pressure from my family to settle down is weighing heavily on me. But I have to be honest: I've never felt drawn to men. From a young age, I didn't experience what other girls described when talking about men. I could see when a brother was kind, funny, or good-looking, but imagining a romantic bond or marriage with a man never sat right with me. It made me uneasy, even physically ill at times. For years, I convinced myself I just hadn't met the right person, but deep down I was struggling. I even consulted a doctor and got my hormones checked, but everything was normal. Over time, I realized the feelings I lacked for men were stirring in me for women. My closest friend, a sister I've known forever, became my everything. Her messages brighten my day, I think of her before sleep, and her joy means the world to me. I called it friendship, until I couldn't anymore. I've fallen in love with her, and it shatters me. I can't tell my family that the daughter they're pushing toward marriage doesn't want a husband. I'm not sure why I'm posting this-maybe to finally speak my truth, maybe to find someone who understands. I feel guilty, scared, and terribly alone. JazakAllah khair for listening.