Assalamu Alaikum - I'm feeling completely overwhelmed
Assalamu Alaikum. I am really exhausted with life right now. It feels like everyone is against me. I try to help people and be kind, and every day something else goes wrong. My family found out I'm Muslim because my principal told them, and now they're furious. I don't know how to live like this. I'm not saying I'll do anything right now, I'm still deciding, but I try to be a good Muslim and keep getting shut down. I can't fast in Ramadan openly, and now I can't even go to Jummah because I'll be discovered. I hate being a revert so much. I honestly don't see why I shouldn't just end it all and be done. I mess up a lot and I'm not even a good Muslim, or at least that's how it feels. I just want it to stop. My little sister is the only one left in my family who cares about me; everyone else is against me for not being atheist. I can't just wait until I'm 18 either, the pain is too much. I don't know what to do. If anyone has advice on dealing with family rejection, staying safe while practicing, or finding some peace and support as a new Muslim, please share. JazakAllah khair.