A Sign That Brought Me Back to My Faith

Salaam everyone. I just had to share what happened because I’m still shaking. Earlier, I had a panic attack thinking it was related to jinn, but I realized it was just anxiety. I feel embarrassed, but I don’t pray regularly. I’ve been doing things I shouldn’t, like smoking and listening to music nonstop. Deep down, I always knew it was wrong, but I never changed. Tonight, I turned to Allah, asked for peace, read some Quran, and recited Ayatul-Kursi. Honestly, I’ve had heavy doubts about Islam because of tough times in my life, and I’d think, ‘Why is my life so hard? Why does Allah let this happen?’ I even stopped caring about salah. But tonight, after asking Allah to calm my fear, the anxiety lifted bit by bit. I started begging for forgiveness, asking Him to remove my doubts. Then, I asked for a specific sign: heavy rain at 3 a.m. to show me I’m forgiven. I made that dua at 2:56, and at 2:58, thunder rumbled. Now it’s pouring like crazy. I’m in awe. This is the fastest, clearest sign I’ve ever gotten. Wallah, my heart is full. My anxiety is gone, and I’ve been crying for 20 minutes because I feel forgiven. If you’re doubting your faith, don’t lose hope. I love Allah. I’m still emotional-but so incredibly motivated to fix my deen.