[UPDATE] I almost left Islam after what my dad said - Alhamdulillah for the support

As-salam alaykum everyone, This is a long update but I want to be thorough. First, Alhamdulillah and JazakAllah Khair to everyone who replied and sent messages. I read every single one and they moved me so much. I’m honestly bawling sometimes - I have to be careful to only read them when I’m alone haha. I’ve never felt more seen or reassured by other people, especially fellow Muslims. I didn’t grow up around many of you, so feeling this understood is really something special. Thank you to those who shared your own stories too. They were so touching and reminded me I’m not alone. Insha'Allah I’ll learn to trust Allah swt more like many of you have, and we all succeed in this life and the next, ameen. For anyone who thought I misheard my dad or made it up - sadly, I didn’t. He has always mixed cultural ideas with Islam and can be very controlling and harsh. My therapist even thinks he shows narcissistic behavior, and that damaged me a lot growing up. He meant what he said and has said similar things before. He’s one of the main reasons I used to resent Islam; he painted such a painful, twisted picture that I couldn’t separate his words from the religion. But Alhamdulillah, Allah swt has slowly guided me back in ways my dad never could. I’m not saying this to shame him publicly but to explain how it affected my faith and why I reached out for help. Also, thank you for the kind advice and support - JazakAllah Khair. Deep down I think I always knew he was wrong, but I’m easily influenced and I’m still his daughter. We’re naturally inclined to trust our parents to some extent. I’m emotional and I’ve been diagnosed with a few things related to the trauma I experienced because of him and other issues too. To those saying I should move out - I wish I could. Insha'Allah I’ll be able to, but right now I don’t have the funds and my siblings who have moved out can’t help because of their own situations. My father also insists I stay until I finish my education and get a high-paying, respectable job since I’m the only daughter, which is unfortunately another six years. He’s very strict and patriarchal and holds subconscious beliefs about honour and control. Trying to reason with him would probably just make him angrier; he’d see it as me talking back. Only Allah swt can guide him now, so please make duaa for him. To the person who called me stupid and said I make excuses: you don’t know me or what I’ve been through. I only shared a small part of my life here, so please try to be more empathetic - we never know what others carry. Saying others have had it worse doesn’t make my pain invalid. Thank you to everyone who sent me private messages. I feel so blessed that you reached out and helped me stay connected to Islam. I can’t say what would’ve happened without this support, but Alhamdulillah Allah swt guided me back and you all played a part in that. May you be rewarded and granted long, healthy lives, and may we meet in Jannah, ameen. I’m going to try to start praying even if it’s sitting down or on the train at first and try not to let it slip, Insha'Allah. I used to believe, because of my dad, that you can’t pray in the same house as a dog. I’ll do my own research on things he told me. My work sometimes involves being around dogs and their saliva can get on my clothes which I worried might affect my prayers - I’ll look for steadier jobs but it’s not easy right now. I’ve started watching the videos and resources some of you recommended and I’ll keep at it. Please feel free to send more suggestions. I’ll try to respond to everyone. JazakAllah Khair. I’m still struggling but taking it one day at a time, and I feel more hopeful now than when I first wrote. Please keep me in your duaas. ❤