Unsure if Reverting Was Right - Need Guidance
Assalamu alaikum, I’m not sure if I made the right choice reverting to Islam and wanted to share why. I didn’t grow up steady in any religion - my family was Christian and I often felt like I was going through the motions for others. This year was one of the hardest for me, and I found Islam then. I was drawn to Tawhid, the idea of one God, and the humility of not showing off our faith or worshipping humans. That part felt true to me. But I’m struggling with the practical side - the salah. I have severe mental health problems that make getting out of bed and basic self-care really difficult. Learning the five prayers feels overwhelming because I don’t know Arabic or how to read the Qur’an properly. I make dua a lot throughout the day, but the formal prayers are the bit I keep missing or avoiding. That makes me fear I’m not sincere or that I’ve done something wrong by reverting, since I know prayer is important. When I became Muslim I didn’t fully think through how to handle this while dealing with my mental health. I’m looking for gentle advice or reassurance from anyone who’s been through similar struggles. How do I approach salah when motivation and energy are so low? Are there small, realistic steps I can take that respect my condition while trying to fulfill my obligations? JazakAllah khair for any kind words or practical tips.