Struggling with waswasa in salah and Qur’an recitation - need advice and du’a
Assalamu Alaikum, I wanted to share something that’s been really tough for me recently. I think I’m dealing with waswasa or maybe OCD when I pray and when I recite the Qur’an. It’s taken away the peace I used to feel and turned worship into something stressful instead of comforting. When I begin salah or start reading, doubts keep coming. I find myself thinking I mispronounced a word, made the wrong niyyah, or didn’t concentrate enough. Sometimes I restart my prayer or repeat ayahs over and over because I’m afraid it wasn’t done correctly. It drains me. I try to tell myself to let it go, but my mind asks, “What if it’s not valid?” and I end up repeating things just to feel certain. The intrusive thoughts are painful too. During salah or recitation I’ll get random unwanted thoughts that feel out of my control, and afterward I feel guilty and worried I’ve done something wrong - even though I know we aren’t held accountable for involuntary thoughts. I miss the calm I used to have in worship. Now it feels like a battle between my iman and my mind. If anyone has experienced this, please share what helped you. Any practical tips or du’as would mean a lot. I’m trying to remember that Allah knows my heart and intentions, but it’s hard at times. Jazakum Allah khair for reading. Please keep me in your du’as.