Struggling to Reconnect with My Faith

Assalamu alaikum, I'm a young Muslimah who's really in need of sincere advice on coming back to Allah. Lately, I keep falling into sin, and at night I'm filled with guilt and worry that I might leave this world in a state of disobedience. I hardly ever pray. I've tried watching Islamic talks and reading tips from others online, but nothing has helped me truly return to my deen. I keep making dua for Allah to soften my heart and guide me to the straight path. The only time I manage to pray is when something bad happens in my life, which sometimes makes me ask Allah to let something difficult occur just to force myself to pray regularly. I wear full hijab, and I often feel shy when my non-hijabi friends step away to pray, making me reflect on my own shortcomings.