struggling with iman as a revert - need someone to talk to

assalamu alaikum. please don’t judge me, i have no one to confide in. i embraced Islam about a year ago and honestly it’s been a daily struggle. i love many parts of the faith and some rules resonate with me, but at the same time i often feel very restricted and it makes me want to panic. sometimes it feels like being a bird in a cage. people keep asking why i reverted, and whenever i explain my reasons they start to sound less convincing to me than they used to. for me the biggest factors were: the quran’s language felt remarkable (but isn’t that subjective? who decides what counts as a “miracle”? i don’t understand arabic so i’m relying on others), and the prophets - especially the character of the Prophet muhammad (s.a.w.) and the hadith literature felt authentic. still, doubts creep in: maybe it’s shaytan, or maybe we just can’t truly know. it all happened so long ago - who knows what people did or how things changed. maybe people were so eager for religion to be true that stories shifted. at the end of the day we’re trusting humans from over a thousand years ago. there are so many sins i wrestle with and i feel like a bad person most days. it’s exhausting. yet islam has also shown me what compassion is and taught me to be less selfish. i sometimes put on a cheerful “assalamu alaikum, subhanallah” on the outside, but inside i’m sad that the evidence didn’t come to me more clearly. i miss some freedoms - for example i can’t keep a close male friend the way i used to, even though we had a purely platonic, meaningful friendship. there are so many things i’m unsure about. i don’t expect answers to fix everything, i just need someone to listen or share advice from an islamic perspective. how do i deal with these doubts and the guilt over my mistakes? how can i find peace with this path while still being honest about my struggles? jazakum allah khair for any support.