Struggling with faith after losing my mom - need dua and understanding

Assalamu alaikum. I’m 22 (F) and my mom was diagnosed with stage 3 cancer in June 2025. Her illness was very aggressive and she passed away from heart failure four days ago. She was only 47 and the only close family I had here in the US. I kept praying at first, but after everything that happened I’ve found it really hard to keep up with salah or make dua. When I talk to people, all I hear is “Allah has better plans” or “don’t stop praying,” and sometimes that makes me feel worse instead of comforted. I’ve started talking to my mom more than I talk to Allah, and I feel guilty and confused about it. I don’t want to become an atheist, but I don’t know if this pain will ever ease. I can’t help wondering why Allah would let something so cruel happen, knowing how alone I’d be without her. At the burial I had no one to hold me, and most of my mom’s family are back home; they keep telling me to pray, but I just don’t have the heart for it right now. I don’t feel like asking anything from Him. I’m sharing this because I need dua and honest words from people who understand grief in a Muslim context. If anyone has gone through something similar and found a way back to salaah or felt comfort again, please tell me what helped - whether it was small steps, certain duas, or how you coped when others’ well-meaning words felt empty. JazakAllah khair.