Struggling in a Dark Place

Assalamu alaikum. I’m a 25-year-old brother, and I was a medical student, but I’ve had to pause my studies for the last four years. The reason was deep depression and addiction-addiction being the biggest monster. I tried getting psychiatric help, but honestly, it didn’t do much for me. For three years, I just lied to myself about my addiction. It spiraled out of control. I hit rock bottom when I started pawning stuff from home, which really upset my family. At the same time, the substances stopped working, like they became useless, and that hit me hard. I made a mess of myself and ended up locking myself at home, thinking that was the only way to stay away from the substances. I was into cigarettes, cannabis edibles, pregabalin, and occasionally Xanax-though I tried to avoid it because I saw how dangerous it could be. Since last August, I’ve been on my sobriety journey. I made it 64 days clean first, then relapsed, then got back up-30 days, another 30, then 74 days. Now I’m at 45 days, alhamdulillah. I’m trying to build a routine, and I’ve been attempting to study, but it barely helps. I do daily meditation, walks, and journaling. But most of the time, I still feel terribly depressed. I have no energy, even for basic tasks. I’ve been thinking about seeking therapy or seeing a psychiatrist again, but I don’t even have the energy for that. On top of it all, I’m unemployed, and studying feels impossible. The thought of going back to college and continuing my education is traumatic. Please make dua for me. Any advice would help.