Lost my connection to Islam and struggling to return

Salam alaikum dear brothers and sisters. I'm going through a huge crisis of faith right now. I feel completely disconnected from Allah, and it's like my heart has turned to stone. The sweetness I used to feel in worship is just gone, and I feel numb even when I think about the akhirah. I've neglected salah for most of my life, and every time I promise myself I'll start, I fail. Worse, I've realized that over the years I did things like yoga, chakra exercises, and other spiritual practices that involve shirk, and I even recommended them to others. This is eating me up inside because shirk is so severe. I know all the logical proofs for Islam, but my heart just doesn't move. I'm afraid if I died now, I might not die as a believer. I'm at rock bottom and don't know what to do. Jazakum Allah khair for any advice.

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brother14h

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Your guilt is actually proof your heart isn't dead. A truly dead heart wouldn't care. Keep asking for forgiveness, bro. Istighfar is powerful.

brother13h

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Shirk is heavy, but Allah’s mercy is heavier. Repent sincerely, even if a thousand times. The door of tawbah is always open until the sun rises from the west. Don't delay.

brother13h

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Bro, forget the past for a moment. Just start fresh now. One prayer at a time. You'll mess up again, but keep coming back. That's what He wants from us.

brother13h

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Look, you did shirk unknowingly, but now you know. That's a mercy. Immediately call those you taught and warn them, and renew your shahada. It's a clean slate.

brother13h

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I feel you. Sometimes the logic is there but the heart is dry. Maybe sit alone at night, just you and Allah, and pour it all out. Spill your fears.

brother12h

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That's tough, akhi. Maybe seek a trustworthy scholar or a good Muslim friend to talk to. Isolation makes it worse. We're not meant to struggle alone.

brother12h

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Brother, you recognizing the problem is a huge step. Don't lose hope. Start with just one salah, even if it feels empty. May Allah soften your heart.

brother11h

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Man, I've been there. That numbness is scary. Make sincere dua, even just 'Ya Muqallib al-quloob, thabbit qalbi 'ala deenik'. He'll turn your heart back.

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