Sometimes Being a Muslim Woman Feels Overwhelming
As-salamu alaykum. Lately I've been struggling with doubts about Islam as a woman and I could really use some advice. Being a woman is already tough, but when it sometimes seems like the religion and its practice focus more on men, it makes everything heavier. Many of the well-known figures we learn about are men, and the women we hear about are often introduced in relation to a man - as someone's wife or mother - instead of being highlighted on their own. The prophets, who are most beloved, are all men, and that feeling of imbalance gets to me. Part of the pain comes from how some men act toward women: fighting our rights, trying to limit what we can do, and criticizing us constantly. It feels like we have to defend every part of our lives - whether we can work, travel, or make our own choices - while men sometimes seem to get away with clear sins and face less scrutiny. Sexism is everywhere, but when it comes wrapped in religious language it hurts even more. Sometimes I wonder if Islam was made with men at the center and women as an afterthought. I've worn the hijab since I was young and I don't want to stop wearing it, but it can feel unfair. We're told to cover ourselves fully while men only have to cover a much smaller area, and yet some men still insist on stricter rules for women or criticize our choices if we don't meet their standards. It seems like hijabis end up being held up as the symbol of Islam, expected to be perfect while men are rarely judged the same way. We're often the ones asked to compromise, to put up with hurtful behavior, and to accept things that pain us. If anyone else has felt this and managed to get through it, please share how you coped. I don't want to drift away from my faith, but I'm finding myself distancing little by little. I hate feeling like my life should revolve around men's opinions or marriage prospects - it makes me feel exhausted and upset.