Repeated broken oaths: need advice
As-salamu alaykum. I've been stuck in a tough cycle. After committing a sin, I repented and swore I'd never do it again. But I slipped back, and before I could offer kafarah-like fasting three days-I made a fresh oath with similar words, only to break it once more. This kept happening, and I think it's been at least 55 times. Each vow was sincere; I regretted the sin and never planned to return. Paying money isn't possible for me, and I worry I can't fast all those days. I know this is my own doing, but I'm scared of dying before I make amends, leaving all those broken promises unresolved. If anyone has knowledge, please help a brother out. JazakAllah khair.