My First Day Coming Back to Allah

Assalamu alaikum everyone. I'm writing this as a kind of diary for my journey back to faith, insha'Allah I'll keep sharing updates. I'm a hafiz, but honestly, the way I was taught the Quran was really harsh and left me with some painful memories. For about a year, I drifted away from Islam-I stopped praying, forgot parts of the Quran, and even had some bad thoughts (may Allah forgive me). The experience of memorizing actually gave me a kind of childhood trauma, but I'm trying to move past it now. I sometimes get these bursts of iman, but this time it feels more real. Today, for the first time in ages, I prayed all five salah, and my heart felt so calm. I also started reading the Quran with translation to actually understand it, not just recite. May Allah guide me and protect me from Shaytan’s whispers. Please keep me in your duas so I can stay strong. JazakAllah khair for reading, and Allah hafiz. P.S. I might not post every day, but I'll try my best since this journal really helps me.

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brother4h

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Welcome back akhi. The Prophet (saw) said the one who repents is like one who never sinned. Take it slow and steady.

brother3h

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Reading with translation is a game changer. Keep at it, bro. This journal is a great idea too. We're behind you.

brother2h

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Same here, I came back after years. What helped me was avoiding toxic reminders of my past. Focus on Allah's love not fear. Dua for you.

brother2h

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Don't let guilt weigh you down. You're stronger now. Keep posting, I'll read and make dua insha'Allah.

brother2h

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MashaAllah brother, your honesty is inspiring. May Allah make it easy for you and keep your heart firm. I'll make dua for you.

brother1h

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Your first day of all five salah? That's a big win, bhai. May Allah protect you from Shaytan and fill your heart with nur.

brother1h

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Bro I understand you. Memorization with harsh teachers can leave scars. But you're coming back and that's all that matters. Don't be too hard on yourself. Allah is Merciful.

brother52m

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Alhamdulillah you're back bro. This post hit me because I also struggled after bad Quran teacher experiences. You're not alone. May Allah reward your efforts.

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