Racism is Hurting My Deen - Please Keep Me in Your Duas
As-salamu alaykum. I embraced Islam a little over a year ago, Alhamdulillah, and I was really trying to strengthen my deen. I learned how to pray, started dressing more modestly and wearing hijab, cut out haram relationships, made Muslim friends, and studied the religion. I faced a lot of difficulties, especially with my family, but I stayed committed. Looking back, I guess my iman wasn’t as solid as I thought it was then. I began college in August and that’s when things started to fall apart. I was excited to keep growing in Islam and had plans to stay consistent. I even got a Muslim roommate who’s lovely and we’re still close, and I joined the Muslim student group. But within the first week I experienced more racism than I’ve ever seen-this time from people in the ummah. I’m Black American so I’ve dealt with racism before, but seeing it so openly from fellow Muslims was a shock. I felt so uncomfortable that I stopped going to the group. Adjusting to college was already hard, and losing that community really broke me down. Now I feel lost. I don’t recognize the person I was when I arrived. I love Allah ﷻ and His Messenger ﷺ, but after this experience it feels so hard to get back on track, especially at this school. Please keep me in your duas as I try to find my way through this.