Nothing changed until I stopped waiting for the “right time” - Assalamu alaikum

Assalamu alaikum - I used to wait for perfect fresh starts way too much. New year, new month, Monday, after exams, after work calms down… there was always some future version of me who would finally get things together. Meanwhile present me was usually just on my phone. Every time the calendar flipped I felt a little spark. I’d tell myself okay now I’m serious. I’d tidy my room, write a list, maybe even stick to it for a couple days. And then somehow I’d slide back to the same routine - scrolling, not even enjoying it, just jumping between apps and wondering where the time went. What bothered me was how normal it felt. It didn’t feel like a big failure. It felt like “I’ll fix it later,” and later kept moving forward. At some point I realized my problem wasn’t motivation or timing or needing a better plan. It was all the tiny choices I made without thinking. Picking up my phone the second something felt boring. Saying five minutes and losing half an hour. Waiting to feel ready while doing things that made me less ready. The change didn’t come on January 1st or after some big reset. It came on a random afternoon when I caught myself about to unlock my phone and just stopped. I didn’t hype myself up or make a plan. I just opened the task I’d been avoiding and started, poorly. That’s when it hit me: I don’t need a new year or some perfect moment. I just need to stop handing every slightly uncomfortable moment to my screen and expect my life to fix itself. I still mess up plenty. I still scroll more than I want. But I don’t wait around for the right time as much anymore. If something’s been on my mind all day, I try to act on it instead of numbing it away and calling it rest. Sometimes I make dua for ease and then just do one small thing. That’s it. No grand lesson. Just something I finally noticed. Edit/Update: Jazakum Allah khair for the advice - I appreciate all the replies. One tip people mentioned that actually helped was to stop aiming for a full life reset and just get one small win early in the day. I also started blocking real time slots on my calendar instead of guessing the day, and it strangely keeps me from drifting. What surprised me most was adding a strict screen-time blocker during those slots - it’s like having a firm older sibling on the phone. You try to open Instagram and a lock screen pops up asking “Are you sure?” - annoying but effective. Putting those two together has made my days feel clearer.