Need Advice as a New Revert Practicing in Secret - Assalamu Alaikum

Assalamu Alaikum, I hope you’re all well. I made this account just to share this. I’m a revert in America and I’ve been practicing completely in secret. I’m desi and no one in my family knows I accepted Islam. I didn’t grow up with the deen, but over time something kept pulling at my heart - late-night thoughts, reading about Islam, small moments that felt like signs. Eventually it became too strong to ignore, and when I learned about the deen something finally clicked. It felt like I found something I’d been missing my whole life. I’m in college about 2–3 hours from my parents. On campus I can pray without much problem. There’s a little masjid and I actually feel normal and safe there. But when I go home, things get stressful. I can’t go to the masjid without sneaking, and I can’t even pray at home without worrying someone will come in or question me. It’s like living two lives. I’ve been learning to pray from scratch - how many rak’ahs, fard vs sunnah, the positions, memorizing Al-Fatiha, Ikhlas, and some short surahs. I still mess up sometimes. I’ll redo a rak’ah because I’m worried I made a mistake. Even with those errors, prayer brings a peace I never had before. The hardest part is staying consistent while hiding it all. My parents don’t fully trust me because of past stuff, and I don’t feel safe telling them I’m Muslim - they wouldn’t accept it. When I’m home I really want to go to the masjid, especially for Isha, but it becomes a whole operation. I’ve even thought about parking somewhere so my phone location looks normal and then walking to the masjid. I know it sounds extreme, but that’s how much I want to pray in congregation. Balancing college, family tension, learning the basics of the deen, avoiding old habits, and keeping everything secret is exhausting. At home I feel lost. I also worry about the future - how can someone in my situation build a real Muslim life? How do I think about marriage or a future household when I can’t openly pray in my own home? I’m asking for advice from anyone who’s been through this. How do you stay consistent when you’re practicing secretly? How do you grow spiritually without family support? And how do reverts eventually build a stable Muslim future when things feel so hidden and unstable now? JazakAllah khair for reading. Any advice or experiences would mean a lot. 💙