Navigating Love and Faith as a Non-Muslim Woman

As-salamu alaykum - I know I’m not Muslim, so please be gentle. I understand dating is haram in Islam, and I’m not trying to disrespect that. I just want to share my situation because I’m really struggling with anxiety and depression and feel lost. Maybe writing this will help. I’m seeing a Muslim man (I know it’s not allowed for him), and we’re both young, just stepping into adulthood. We grew up next door to each other and fell in love. I care about him deeply and the thought of losing him feels devastating. I sometimes feel guilty about loving him as a non-Muslim, but he’s actually brought me closer to Islam - I’ve learned a lot and I find the faith very beautiful. He told me that if we were to marry, I’d need to accept Islam. If I do choose to convert, it would be for my faith and my relationship with Allah, not just for him. The big worry is his family. They’re quite strict, and he’s been keeping our relationship from them. He isn’t as strict, but his parents are. I don’t know if they would accept me even if I became Muslim, especially since I come from a different religious background and wouldn’t have much knowledge at first. The uncertainty about whether his family would accept me - or whether they might arrange his marriage to someone else - makes me anxious and often brings me to tears. Whenever I try to talk about the future, he says he doesn’t know what his family will do, and that uncertainty is heartbreaking. Maybe some will say I should just walk away, but loving someone makes that really hard. I’m torn between wanting to follow a sincere path toward Islam and fearing rejection by his family. I don’t have answers - I’m just looking for advice, support, and perhaps prayers. JazakAllah khair for reading.