My Last Attempt: Choosing Solitude, Assalaamu Alaikum

Assalaamu Alaikum. For a while now I've come to a very painful truth: I feel completely alone in every part of my life. Unfortunately, there aren't Muslims around me who want to learn, spend time together, or encourage good deeds. Nobody really appreciates what I do or wants to be near me. To many-whether brothers and sisters in deen or just people I meet-I seem to be only useful when they need something, and then I'm left aside. I truly believe in helping my brothers and sisters; it's something meaningful to me. But it has turned into a source of pain. When you give sincerely and then notice how people treat you - so casually, as if you're just a tool - it hurts deeply. Especially during Eid or when I need support, there's almost no one there for me. Family matters are even more toxic, and I don't want to go into details. So in short, there is nobody to be genuinely human with. I know we are taught to turn to Allah and that He heals hearts, and I try to remember that, but the feeling of being invisible is eating me from the inside. It drains my energy. Sometimes I feel like I should hide my feelings and abandon my dreams because it seems there is no one and no future. Even the thought of marriage feels like something that may never come for me. Seeing hurtful behavior toward me - even from people who don't realize they're causing pain - is overwhelming. It wounds me, whether it's intentional or not. Because of that, isolation feels like the only option. Staying away from people seems easier than facing constant disappointment. Is it really forbidden for me to be human? Are my needs to share, to talk, to have a small circle of caring people denied to me? I honestly feel like I can't keep going this way. Please keep me in your duas.