My heart keeps wandering to dreams of a life I don't yet have, and it's starting to weigh me down.

Assalamu alaikum, I just have to get this off my chest. I spend so much time daydreaming, and almost all of it circles back to the same hopes: a future home, a blessed life, and a righteous spouse to grow in faith with. I imagine beautiful moments, everyday routines, and the joy of children. Whether I'm trying to focus on studies or sleep at night, my mind drifts there. Every time I snap back to reality, things feel a little emptier. I live with family and have people around, yet I've never felt more alone. Seeing married couples sometimes makes my heart ache, and even with family, I can feel invisible. There's no one I can really open up to about this. Another fear I carry is about wanting a pious marriage one day when I don't yet wear hijab. At home, even praying on time or expressing a wish to wear hijab can make me seem 'too religious.' So I'm caught in between: too religious for my family's comfort, yet not where I want to be for the life I'm dreaming of. Has anyone else experienced this? How do you handle the waiting and the loneliness without letting it overwhelm you? Any Islamic or practical advice would truly be appreciated. JazakAllah khayran 🤍