Lost a dear friend and now fearing the Angel of Death

A close companion of mine recently returned to Allah, and since then, I've been overwhelmed with fear that my time could come next. I'm struggling to sleep, and anxiety keeps me up. It's nearly 3:30 in the morning, and each time I doze off, I jolt awake in a panic. My eyes feel heavy, but I force them open. I keep dropping my phone because I'm nodding off, but I'm fighting to stay awake out of this intense fear of death. I feel like I just want to pace around my room until Fajr to avoid sleeping. I'm scared to close my eyes and sometimes even scared of being in this dunya.

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sister3h

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I felt this exact way when my grandmother passed. It does get easier with time, insha'Allah. Try listening to a soothing recitation, it helped me calm my heart.

sister2h

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Oh sis, my heart aches for you. Been there. Sending you so much love and strength.

sister2h

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This is so relatable. Please make du'a and remember that Allah is the Most Merciful. Our time is written, try to find peace in that.

sister1h

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May Allah grant your friend Jannah and give you ease. The fear is natural but don't let it consume you. Maybe try just listening to the Quran quietly instead of forcing yourself to stay up?

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