Left a haram relationship for Allah - will this pain ever ease?

Assalamu alaikum. I’m writing with a heavy heart and sincere niyyah. Please be gentle. I recently ended a relationship that was haram because I wanted to obey Allah. We both loved each other and both hoped to make it halal, but family issues, cultural and language barriers, and the risk to my safety made marriage impossible right now. He’s a good, sincere person. He respected my decision, agreed we should stop contact, and said he’ll pray for a halal outcome if Allah wills. His family knows about me and that he intended to marry. I can’t tell my family at all because of strict cultural and societal consequences. I’m afraid of what would happen if they found out, and that’s why a halal path isn’t an option for now despite our intentions. We decided together to cut contact so we wouldn’t continue sinning. I deleted accounts, blocked access, and made tawbah. I don’t want to go back to haram. But I’m struggling a lot. The pain comes in waves. Sometimes I feel at peace because I obeyed Allah. Other times I miss him so much my chest hurts and I have urges to message him even though I know it would restart everything. I worry: - What if he’s not okay? - What if I heal and he doesn’t? - What if this pain never ends? I’m praying sincerely: “Ya Allah, if he is good for me and I am good for him, bring us together in halal. And if not, remove this attachment from my heart and grant me peace.” I’m not looking for shortcuts or haram advice. I just want to hear from people who: - left a haram relationship for the sake of Allah - felt that intense attachment and pain - later found peace, or were able to marry in halal, or healed over time Does this phase truly pass if you keep no-contact? Does the heart actually calm down one day? Please make dua for me and please reply if you have any real experience or encouragement. Jazakom Allahu khairan.