I’ve prayed Istikhara and keep making du’a, but I’m still drawn to someone who hurt me - how do I tell if it’s from Allah or just attachment?

As-salamu alaykum, I’m really struggling and wondering if anyone’s been through something similar. I was heartbroken over someone I cared about. I’m a bit ashamed to admit I wasn’t always consistent with my prayers before, though I used to make du’a for general guidance. Things seemed okay for a while but then got messy and would have only gotten worse. It ended suddenly - he pulled away, became avoidant, lied, and eventually blocked me. Logically I know I should move on; the relationship wasn’t healthy. It wasn’t long, but it was intense. I’m blocked everywhere now. Here’s what confuses me: Even after all that, I still have this feeling in my heart. It’s not an urge to chase him, but this odd pull to keep praying for him. I’ve made du’a for my heartbreak to be eased, and subhanAllah I really feel that pain has lessened - I’m grateful for that. But I also make another du’a every day: “Ya Allah, if he is good for my deen, my future, and my akhirah, soften his heart and bring us closer. And if he is not good for me, replace him with something better.” I say it because I want to trust Allah’s plan, not my own wishes. Still, part of me keeps wanting to pray specifically for him - that Allah softens his heart, that there’s hope. I can’t tell if it’s genuine intuition or just attachment dressed up as spirituality. I’ve done Istikhara twice - not asking “make him mine,” but asking, “Ya Allah, show me if this feeling is real guidance or just my own delusion. Grant me clarity.” After both, I still feel this tug in my chest, like maybe I’m meant to wait. Then my rational side says, “You’re being delusional. He hurt you. Why hold on?” I feel stuck between two voices: - The spiritual part thinking sometimes Allah separates people so they can grow and maybe reunite better - The practical part thinking I’m trauma-bonded and turning heartbreak into something spiritual because it hurts Has anyone else felt pulled to keep praying for someone who’s no longer in your life? How do you tell the difference between: - true intuition - plain attachment - wishful thinking - and signs from Allah? Does Istikhara ever come as “be patient” instead of “move on”? Or am I clinging to something I should release? I don’t want to deceive myself. I want clarity and to do what Allah wants, not what my emotions want. If anyone’s been exactly here and can share how they decided or what signs helped them, I’d really appreciate it. Also, this whole situation has actually drawn me closer to Allah. I feel His presence more than before and I’m grateful. I don’t want to rely on pain to feel close to Him - I want to keep praying because I truly want that relationship. I just can’t tell whether I should keep praying specifically for him or if that’s the part I need to let go of. Jazakum Allahu khairan for any advice or personal experiences.