Is Allah upset with me?

Assalamu alaikum, I’ve fallen into a lot of sins, especially struggling with hurting myself. I’m starting to think I’ll always have these thoughts of wanting to just… end it all. I’m so, so exhausted. Islam has been the one thing holding me together, but now I feel like I’m losing that grip. Allah is so merciful, right? Would He really punish me so harshly? If anyone reads this, please make dua for my forgiveness. Also, my family just found out about my self-harm. They yelled at me so much. I know it’s wrong and I’m not proud of it, but their shouting is just… a lot. I pray all my five salah, and I feel close to Allah, so why did this have to happen? Why did they have to find out? Sorry if I’m rambling, I’m just really shaken up with them knowing now.