I wear my hijab for Allah, but it's causing me real pain
As-salaam alaikum, I'm a 23F and I've been dealing with PCOS and severe hair loss for years. On top of that I have seborrheic dermatitis, which causes flaky, scaly, greasy, sometimes itchy and inflamed skin - mainly on my scalp, face, and chest. It's taken a toll on my self-esteem and social life. I started wearing the hijab around 18/19 when I began university, out of love for Allah and to obey Him. I still love wearing it and feel blessed to have that conviction. But since I began covering, my hair loss has kept getting worse. My scalp hurts a lot, and my hair has been thinning since I was 17. No matter what caps, under-scarves, materials, or styles I try - up, down, loose, tight, breathable scarves - my scalp still feels inflamed and painful unless I take the hijab off. The only times my hair seemed to recover a little were long holiday breaks when I wasn't covering. My dermatologist only diagnosed the seb derm after I started wearing the hijab. I don't want to disobey Allah by removing my hijab, but I'm honestly balding and it's destroying me emotionally. I love dressing up and trying styles for women-only gatherings, but my hair is disappearing and I can't do those things anymore. I've already tried vitamins, medicated shampoos, and treatments prescribed by my endo and derm - nothing helps unless I stop wearing the hijab. I feel crushed and don't know what to do. Has anyone faced something similar? Are there ways to manage scalp inflammation while still covering that I haven't tried, or religiously acceptable alternatives I can consider so I don't feel like I'm forced to choose between my faith and my hair? JazakAllah khair for any advice or support.