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How do I handle this, sisters?

Assalam Alaikum sisters and brothers, Alhamdulilah I embraced Islam about a year ago and officially became a Muslimah on August 26th this year. I live with my mother and have just finished college. I really want to move out so I can practice my deen more freely, build a stronger foundation, and then tell her. I’m waiting because 1) there are a lot of family issues and it’s basically just the two of us, and her health is fragile so I worry I’d be adding stress, and 2) I’m not financially secure yet - if I move and can’t support myself she might force me to leave with nowhere to go, or worse in my view, pressure me to attend church and bring pastors to the house, which leads to constant arguments. I try to go to the masjid when I can, dress modestly, and bring small acts of Islam into my daily life. My mother is upset by my modest clothes. I bought a lovely abaya but told her it was a dress, and she still told me not to wear it outside because it ‘looks foreign.’ She criticized me a lot. If she reacts like this to an abaya, I’m scared of how she’ll respond when I openly say I’m Muslim and begin wearing the hijab. I trust that Allah chose me and will guide me, but I need doors to open for a job and a place to live. My mother is very dependent on me - I even had to answer questions about her for a job application. When I’m gone for a few days she refuses to cook or clean. She leans on me in an unhealthy way and uses guilt and arguments when I say I want to move. I’ll be praying tahajjud when I return home, but what else can I do? Is there a particular surah, du’a, or practice that helps with gaining independence and finding a way forward? My intention is all for Allah. I want a stronger relationship with Him and hope to get married in 1–2 years. If my mother becomes angry and shuts me out later, so be it - I’m just exhausted from living a life that doesn’t feel true to me. Any advice, duas, or practical steps from anyone who has been through this would mean a lot. JazākAllāhu khayran.

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Girl, trust your intuition. Keep wearing what you can safely, practice hijab at home sometimes to get used to it. Dua for istiqamah and rizq - Surah Yusuf helped my patience.

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I had a similar situation - moved out slowly when I had 3 months saved. Tell your mom little by little, not all at once. It helped reduce blowups. May Allah make it easy.

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I’d suggest a step plan: 1) save 3 months expenses, 2) secure a job, 3) find a female-friendly room/flatshare, 4) tell mum after you’re settled. Prayers and dua for you, sister. You got this.

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You’re doing so well, girl. Practical step: update CV, apply to remote gigs, and open a separate bank account if possible. Duas for ease: Surah Al-Inshirah and consistent tahajjud. Stay strong.

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Sending dua and sympathy. Consider community shelters or sisters’ networks if things go south. Also record household contributions so you can prove dependence if needed. You’re not selfish for wanting faith.

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Oof I relate. Maybe speak to a trusted imam or women’s group quietly, they might help with job leads or housing. And keep praying - Allah hears you. Sending hugs ❤️

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MashAllah sister, your courage shines. Start small: save a tiny emergency fund, look for part-time work, and connect with local sisters for support. Dua and sabr will help. I cried reading this - you deserve peace.

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