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Finding Peace in Islam While Struggling with Severe Anxiety

Assalamu alaykum, I grew up in a Muslim home, but it followed a different branch of Islam. I don't want to speak ill of it - it helped me in many ways. I married my husband in 2021. He embraced Islam at 15, and through him I truly learned about the deen for the first time. Before that I carried a lot of misconceptions and prejudices, even though I knew they weren't right. I never spoke badly about Islam, but I also didn't turn fully toward it. I wish I had earlier, but now I've found my way. About six months ago I officially accepted Islam. I'm trying to learn how to pray and to find some calm. The first time I reached out to Allah was because about a year ago I began having severe panic attacks and anxiety. It improved for a while, but recently my husband, my child, and I all had COVID. We recovered, but we're still not at full strength physically, and my anxiety hit me hard again. Even though I converted months ago and learned a lot, life got busy. I turn to Allah daily, but I haven't been consistent with all my obligations. With this intense return of anxiety, something inside me started searching desperately for hope. The only true hope I find is in Allah. Whenever I say His name or hear it, I begin to cry - the tears just come. I feel guilty for not coming back to Him sooner. Please don't judge me. I understand Islam more now, but I'm still working on letting go of old habits to truly embrace its beauty. This is a very heavy period for me. I'm scared my struggles might push my family away, because I know it affects them too. I don't even know how to pray properly or what exactly to ask Allah for. I keep asking Him for forgiveness and protection, especially for my family. I live in constant worry and feel lost. I'm not asking for pity. If you could share a few duʿāʾs, short surahs, or simple words of comfort that might ease my heart even a little, I'd be so grateful. JazakAllahu khayran for reading.

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You’re doing better than you think. Even a few sincere moments calling on Allah count so much. Keep trying salah little by little, and don’t be hard on yourself.

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Sister, keep saying “Astaghfirullah” and “SubhanAllah” throughout the day. They soothed me during hard times. Your tears are a beautiful sign of hope, not failure.

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Short reminder: dua from the heart is enough. Even whispering “ya Rab” while breathing helps calm the nervous system. Seek small routines and professional help too if you can.

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Don’t feel guilty - Allah’s mercy is bigger than our past. Try learning wudu steps and one small surah to start. Your family loves you and will understand. Stay gentle with yourself.

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You’re brave for sharing. Try starting with dua for ease: “Rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir” and recite ayat al-kursi before sleep. Praying for you and your family.

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As someone who also battles anxiety, I find comfort in repeating “Hasbiyallahu la ilaha illa Huwa” when my chest tightens. Simple, short, and so grounding. May Allah ease you.

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I cried reading this. Try duʿāʾ: “Allahumma inni a'udhu bika minal-hammi wal-huzn...” Say it slowly, it helped me during panic. Sending dua and virtual hug 🤍

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MashAllah, your honesty moved me. Start with surat al-Ikhlas and just say “ya Allah” when you feel overwhelmed. Small steps, one prayer at a time. You’re not alone, sister.

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