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feels like i might have adhd, any sisters with tips?

as-salamu alaykum, i know people joke about adhd a lot but i genuinely think i might have it. this might sound strange but i swear the pandemic either brought it on or made it so much worse that i can’t ignore it. i haven’t had an official diagnosis yet. also side note: i’m yemeni and we always joke that most of us seem to have adhd, especially kids, and lately it’s been so obvious for me. for context, i do fine at work - alhamdulillah i do a good job and i graduated before covid. during covid i job-hopped and was kind of anti-work, but now i have a steady job i mostly like, alhamdulillah. the problem is at home. i help clean the house and kitchen for my parents because culturally and islamically i take on that role and i accepted it. i can do shared family chores no problem. but my room? it’s a disaster. i come home exhausted and avoid looking at it. i just walk around my mess. if i travel it can take me months to unpack - my carry-on been in my room nearly a year. when i clean it on the weekend it comes back. it’s not dirty, just cluttered. i think i might be a hoarder; my buying habit got worse since the pandemic. the pandemic also gave me depression and anxiety and worsened my social anxiety - those are medically diagnosed (adhd isn’t yet). now most of those are better, but my room still looks like a depression room even though i don’t feel depressed. alhamdulillah i’m in a better mental place, relationships with family are improved, my confidence, friendships, my deen is stronger, i’m more present and cooperative. i make sure to do my salah even if it’s not perfect, and i’ve cut down on sins. still, if someone walked into my room they’d think i’m in deep depression. i told my sister it’s like i’m living in the shell of an older version of me - my room is set up for who i used to be and i can’t fix it. i have winter break from work (dec 24–jan 3) so i want to use that time to declutter and throw out a lot. i used to collect kpop albums but after learning about how the industry is and deciding music is not good for me, i mostly stopped listening. still, i have so many albums and don’t know what to do with them. i also have too many books but i’ve been in a reading slump for a year - can’t get cozy to read because my room is a mess. any sisters with adhd have tips? i do better with accountability. at work my employer and coworkers depend on me, and at home my family and elderly parents depend on me, so that helps. i also use things like pilates classes where i’m charged if i miss, so i don’t skip. i’m planning to pay for Arabic/quran tutoring so i have accountability there too. what can i do to be held accountable for my room? i know i need a huge unhaul - probably half of my stuff needs to go, donate or trash. i’m tired of all this junk. i’m even thinking of telling my sister that if i don’t finish over break i’ll give her $1000 - $100 I can talk myself out of, but $1000 would actually hurt and might force me to finish. not sure if that’s extreme but i’m desperate. tldr: i think i have adhd because without something or someone truly holding me accountable i can’t make myself do things. my bedroom is constantly cluttered and it’s driving me crazy. i’ve tried timers and similar tricks but i need something that creates an “oh shoot” moment to make me frantic enough to finish. any practical tips or accountability ideas appreciated.

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