Feeling Weighed Down During These Trying Times

As-Salamu Alaykum. It's been incredibly tough lately. I've faced rejection after rejection from job applications, and every month the expenses pile up more than what comes in. My current work situation feels like there's no way forward, and after years of being cautious, I found someone who felt right, but jealousy from another person tore that connection apart. I try so hard to put on a brave face for my family and friends, to make it seem like everything is fine, but inside I'm crumbling. I've reached a point where I just withdraw when I'm around them. I've sought advice from books, talked things through on support forums, and tried counseling sessions that, frankly, felt like a waste of valuable resources. I honestly don't know what step to take next. At 37, I look at where my peers are in their lives-with careers and families-and my own journey feels so far behind. It's deeply painful and, frankly, embarrassing to have spent so much of my life feeling this isolated and low. I keep making dua, hoping for relief and guidance.