Feeling Lonely - Please Make Duʿāʾ for Me

Assalāmu ʿalaykum, I just need to get this off my chest and would really appreciate your duʿāʾ. Lately I’ve been feeling a deep kind of loneliness - not the casual sort, but the kind that comes when you’re at a point in life and you truly need guidance. I watch people my age thriving with mentors and support, and I realize I don’t really have that. It’s not that there aren’t elders around. There are, but nobody really talks to me. Maybe they’re busy, or maybe they think I can handle everything myself. I’m slowly trying to piece my life together. Some days that feels empowering; other days it’s just so draining. Alḥamdulillāh I know Allah ﷻ is with me, and I’m keeping up with my prayers and adhkār. I’m making a big decision right now that feels like a turning point, though I’d rather not share the details. Still, today I cried because it all felt overwhelming. I hold opinions that my family finds “weird,” even though they make sense to me. I’m careful and respectful when I speak, but since I don’t live alone I still have to face reactions. That makes the loneliness louder. I’m not asking for advice or for anyone to be harsh with me - I just needed a safe place to vent. Most of my friends aren’t close to the deen; a few are Muslim but we aren’t tight. Alḥamdulillāh my faith hasn’t wavered, but the isolation still stings. I believe that when we’re lonely, Allah is closest to us. I hold onto that. But I’m tired - this weight feels heavy. I remind myself that Allah does not burden a soul beyond its capacity, and that’s why I’m humbly asking you to please make duʿāʾ for me. On top of everything, I’ve been dealing with a physical health issue for over five months now and it’s still ongoing. Mentally I’m exhausted. I don’t really have someone I can say, “I’m tired, I need to rest, I need to be heard by someone who understands.” Something else that’s been hurting: if someone needs help or even to borrow something, I rarely say no - not because I can’t, but because I want to be there for people. I’m far from perfect and trying to cut down on my sins. Recently I lent something very dear to me to someone close so they could use it while I wasn’t. When I needed it back in an emergency, they said they didn’t know where it was and told me to go away. That stung more than losing the item - it was how they dismissed me. I told Allah ﷻ exactly that in my duʿāʾ: “Allah, I’m hurt.” I didn’t even know what else to say. I’m just hurt. Please keep me in your duʿāʾ - for ease in my decision, healing for my body, strength for my heart, and righteous friends and mentors. JazakAllāhu khayran.