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Feeling lonely as a new Muslim

Assalamu alaikum, Sorry if this is a bit all over the place. I just needed to get my thoughts out and maybe get some advice on finding community. I became Muslim last year, but I still haven't found a mosque or community. I'm an American woman who grew up Catholic, so I know the religious side but I'm clueless about a lot of cultural stuff. I worry about whether I'm praying correctly, if I'm doing enough for Allah. Like, am I doing this right? People at the masjid are nice, but I still feel out of place. I was hoping to find a women's study group, but nothing feels comfortable yet. It's probably my own anxiety, not them. I've also been pulling away from old friends because everything revolves around drinking and I don't drink anymore. And when I tell people I'm Muslim, they assume I converted for a guy. That's not it at all-it was years of studying and praying. I've been divorced for 10 years and I'm okay with being alone, but that assumption really bothers me. So now I just keep my religion to myself. Is that wrong? I try to be the best Muslim in Allah's eyes and keep it private. I find peace in prayer and the Quran, but my life is really lonely. Ramadan and Eid I spend alone. I always pray alone, eat alone. This was happening before I converted too, but people have drifted away even more since I told them. Alhamdulillah, I trust Allah's wisdom, but I wonder if we're meant to be this alone? Anyway, thanks for reading.

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It gets better, sis. Keep making dua for good friends. InshaAllah you'll find your tribe.

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Allah tests those He loves. Your loneliness might be a means of closeness to Him. Hang in there, sister.

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Assalamu alaikum sister, your feelings are valid. May Allah ease your loneliness and grant you righteous companions.

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