Feeling guilty that my career pushed me back to Allah
Salaam everyone, I have something on my mind and I wonder if anyone else has felt this way. I've been trying to get closer to Allah lately, making more du'a and working on my connection with Him. But honestly, I feel kinda guilty about the reason I started. What really made me turn back was stress about my career-I was really worried about my future and needed His help to sort things out. Before that, I was deep in sin and not really trying to change. It was that worldly fear that got me praying again. Since then, I've been avoiding those old sins, and I ask Allah to make me care more about the akhirah than this world and to make me sincere. But still, I can't shake the thought that my first push was all about dunya. I keep thinking if I hadn't been so stressed about work, maybe I wouldn't have come back to Him at all. That makes me feel like a hypocrite almost, like I only reached out because I wanted something here. Anyone else been through this? Is it bad that a worldly worry brought me back to Allah, even though now I'm genuinely trying to be better and more sincere? Jazakum Allahu khayran.