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Feeling guilty that my career pushed me back to Allah

Salaam everyone, I have something on my mind and I wonder if anyone else has felt this way. I've been trying to get closer to Allah lately, making more du'a and working on my connection with Him. But honestly, I feel kinda guilty about the reason I started. What really made me turn back was stress about my career-I was really worried about my future and needed His help to sort things out. Before that, I was deep in sin and not really trying to change. It was that worldly fear that got me praying again. Since then, I've been avoiding those old sins, and I ask Allah to make me care more about the akhirah than this world and to make me sincere. But still, I can't shake the thought that my first push was all about dunya. I keep thinking if I hadn't been so stressed about work, maybe I wouldn't have come back to Him at all. That makes me feel like a hypocrite almost, like I only reached out because I wanted something here. Anyone else been through this? Is it bad that a worldly worry brought me back to Allah, even though now I'm genuinely trying to be better and more sincere? Jazakum Allahu khayran.

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Chill, bro. Even Umar ibn al-Khattab had a worldy reason before Islam. What matters is where you end up. Just keep your niyyah pure now.

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Bro, I went through the exact same thing. Allah uses whatever means to bring us back. He knew you'd answer when career stress hit. Now sincerity can grow. Keep at it.

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Dude, I laugh now but I once made wudu drunk crying for a job. Then Allah cleaned me up. It's not where you start, it's who you become.

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Brother, your feeling is called haya, and it's a sign of iman. Hypocrites don't worry about hypocrisy. Stay grateful Allah chose you.

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Man, don't beat yourself up. The Prophet said Allah's mercy encompasses everything. Your guilt shows your heart's alive. Make dua for sincerity and move forward.

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