Feeling Distant from My Faith and Unsure What to Do

Assalamu Alaikum, I feel like my connection with Islam is slowly fading. Deep down, I believe it’s the right path, but I just can’t seem to feel close to Allah anymore. I think my struggles with depression and mental health have made it harder to feel that closeness. I was raised in a Muslim home, but I never really learned how to pray properly. No matter how much I try, I can’t seem to memorize the prayers, and it makes me feel like I’m failing at something every Muslim should know. I want to feel close to Allah, but I just don’t know how anymore. I don’t have many Muslim sisters or brothers around me who could support or teach me more about Islam. My family often looks down on me, and that makes it even harder since I’m already struggling inside. In my community, women who have thoughts of despair are sometimes misunderstood, and that makes me feel even more hopeless. Lately, my depression and dark thoughts have gotten worse, and sometimes I feel like giving up on Islam altogether. I hate feeling this way because I don’t want to turn away from Allah, but I keep worrying that I’ll always disappoint Him. I feel like I’ve failed as a daughter, and I can’t imagine myself ever being a strong Muslimah. Honestly, I don’t even know why I’m writing this. Maybe I just needed to share my feelings somewhere. It feels like a heavy weight on my heart, and I had to let it out. If anyone has been through something similar, how did you find your way back? How do you rebuild your faith when you feel broken inside? Please be kind and understanding.