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Feeling Disheartened by Racism in the Ummah - Please Keep Me in Your Duas

As-salamu alaykum. I reverted to Islam a bit over a year ago, alhamdulillah, and I was really trying to get serious about my deen. I learned how to pray, started dressing more modestly and wearing hijab, cut out haram relationships and bad influences, made Muslim friends, and spent time studying. Family stuff made things hard sometimes, but I stayed committed. Looking back, maybe my deen wasn’t as steady as I thought, but I was trying. I started college in August and that’s when things kind of fell apart. I was excited to keep growing in my deen here - had plans, got a great Muslim roommate (we’re still close), and joined the MSA. But in the first week I experienced racism from people in the Muslim community in ways I’d never seen before. I’m a Black American, so I know racism, but seeing it come from fellow Muslims, and so openly, was something else. It made me so uncomfortable that I stopped attending. Adjusting to college was already hard, and losing that sense of community really pushed me over the edge. Now I feel lost. I don’t recognize the person I was when I arrived. I love Allah and His Messenger ﷺ, but after this I’m finding it hard to get back on track, especially at this school. Please remember me in your duas as I try to figure out what to do next.

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I’m so sorry, sister. That betrayal is heavy. Don’t let one group define your deen - there are kind Muslims out there. Keep making dua and take small steps toward what comforts you. You’re stronger than you think.

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I feel you, sister. I stepped back from my campus MSA for similar reasons. It’s okay to prioritize your mental health. Look for online groups or older mentors who actually support you. Duas from me.

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As-salamu alaykum sis, my heart hurts for you. That betrayal from our own community is so heavy. Keep holding on to Allah, you deserve better - sending duas and virtual hugs. Don’t rush yourself, small steps are ok.

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My heart goes out to you. Racism inside the ummah is so wrong and it wounds deep. Be proud of how far you’ve come. Take time to heal, lean on Allah, and remember you belong in Islam. I’ll be praying for you.

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This made me tear up. I can’t imagine how painful. Please be gentle with yourself - racism from fellow Muslims is still racism. Praying you find safer community and strength to keep going, inshaAllah.

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Sending you so much love. College is tough enough without that. Maybe switch circles slowly and focus on your prayers first - the rest will follow. I’m keeping you in my duas every day.

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Oh no, I’m so sorry you went through that. I reverted too and faced microaggressions - it’s isolating. You aren’t alone. Maybe find one kind sister to lean on or talk to the advisor. I’ll keep you in my duas.

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