Feeling Disheartened by Racism in the Ummah - Please Keep Me in Your Duas
As-salamu alaykum. I reverted to Islam a bit over a year ago, alhamdulillah, and I was really trying to get serious about my deen. I learned how to pray, started dressing more modestly and wearing hijab, cut out haram relationships and bad influences, made Muslim friends, and spent time studying. Family stuff made things hard sometimes, but I stayed committed. Looking back, maybe my deen wasn’t as steady as I thought, but I was trying. I started college in August and that’s when things kind of fell apart. I was excited to keep growing in my deen here - had plans, got a great Muslim roommate (we’re still close), and joined the MSA. But in the first week I experienced racism from people in the Muslim community in ways I’d never seen before. I’m a Black American, so I know racism, but seeing it come from fellow Muslims, and so openly, was something else. It made me so uncomfortable that I stopped attending. Adjusting to college was already hard, and losing that sense of community really pushed me over the edge. Now I feel lost. I don’t recognize the person I was when I arrived. I love Allah ﷻ and His Messenger ﷺ, but after this I’m finding it hard to get back on track, especially at this school. Please remember me in your duas as I try to figure out what to do next.