Desperate plea: please make dua for me
Assalamu alaikum, dear brothers and sisters. I'm reaching out from a really tough spot. I'm in my first year at university. My own mistakes have put me in a situation where I'm scared of what I might do to myself and what's coming. I lied to my parents to cover up my failing grades this semester. Now I'm being held back a semester, and I'm truly crushed. Even though I lied, they've been harsh with me, and one of them threatened to force me into marriage, expecting my studies to be flawless. I honestly can't bear their scolding, and I've been turning to haram ways to cope, which I despise myself for. Not only have I dug myself a deep hole in this dunya, but also in my akhira. Because of my failed courses, I'll be delayed a semester and won't graduate until a year later. I genuinely can't handle my parents' reaction when they find out-I won’t feel safe with them. To avoid that, I need a miracle from Allah to let me continue without being held back. I've already emailed my university, begging them to find a solution, but I don't know what else to do. Please, make dua for me. Ask Allah to allow me to progress this semester without delay, and that my dua is answered in a way that makes me weep with gratitude and joy. I just want mercy, even though all I've done is sin. I need relief. Jazakumu Allahu khairan.