Assalamualaikum - Trying to find my path
Assalamualaikum. I never expected to be someone who’d spend late nights reading about a faith different from my upbringing, but over the past year something changed inside me. I’m a Hindu woman - born and raised with traditions I love - yet, for reasons I can’t fully explain, Islam has been gently calling to me in quiet moments. At first it was the simplicity of tawheed, the routine of salah, and the peace I felt listening to the Qur’an. I didn’t set out to convert or anything, I was just curious. That curiosity grew into a warmth, and that warmth into a sort of longing. I started imagining what life might be like as a Muslim woman. And that’s where the real struggle started - hijab and niqab. I used to look at sisters in hijab or niqab with a mix of admiration and puzzlement. I wondered what it would be like to show your faith outwardly, to have that visible expression. As I learned more, covering began to feel less strange and more connected to modesty and inner calm. But my head is all over the place. Part of me is pulled toward the hijab - its dignity, the idea that people would see my mind and character more than my face. Another part is scared. How will my family take it? My friends? My job? Am I even emotionally ready? And niqab feels like an even bigger step. I respect women who choose it, but I’m not sure if it’s for me now, or if I should even be thinking about it yet. I’m still figuring things out. I’m still figuring out who I am. Please keep me in your duas.