Assalamu Alaikum - New to Islam and Looking Around
Assalamu Alaikum everyone. I’ll try to keep this short and not ramble too much. I didn’t grow up very religious. My parents were more into seasonal traditions than formal religion. I did spend the first nine years of my childhood going to Lutheran Sunday school with my Christian grandparents. My parents were always open to exploring religion but never followed one themselves. I’ve always been spiritual and curious, but never claimed a particular faith. A few years ago I got curious about Islam. I wanted to understand it beyond the scary portrayals I’d seen here in the U.S. I don’t know Arabic, so I started listening to an English translation of the Qur’an and tried following along with Arabic recitation. Interacting with the Qur’an and learning about Islam has brought me a lot of peace. I’m currently in college and taking a world religions class where we had to attend a service from another faith. I used that as a chance to visit a local mosque. The prayer was beautiful. Parts in Arabic were hard for me to follow, but the warmth in the room felt very real. Being called “sister” by people I’d never met was so kind - that welcome will stay with me. My time at the mosque was actually the only time I’ve prayed regularly so far. I really love Islam: the teachings, the people, and the practices. Still, I’m unsure about converting. I worry I have too many habits and interests that don’t fit the level of piety I imagine is expected. If I were to accept Islam, I’d want to do it properly and respectfully, but I don’t want to erase who I am or give up everything I love. It feels like a big commitment - a beautiful one - but I’m not sure I’m ready. The language barrier is also intimidating. Not knowing Arabic makes it hard to pray and follow the service fully. Just wanted to share where I’m at and hear from anyone who’s been in a similar place - how did you balance learning, keeping parts of yourself, and growing into the practices at your own pace? JazakAllahu khair.