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Assalamu Alaikum - I want to return to Allah but I'm scared

Assalamu Alaikum, I'll be honest - I practiced a lot of black magic and did rituals in the past. For a while they seemed to give me things, but I always felt dirty and not like myself. The only time I felt true peace without worrying about worldly stuff was when I was Muslim. Life was hard and my childhood was rough, but I still saw beauty in things and trusted Allah. I'm really scared. I want to say my shahada and come back to Allah, but I'm worried the spirits or the effects of what I did will harm me for not being loyal or for breaking some kind of contract. I know it might sound crazy, but I have nobody to talk to - my family hates me and my friends aren't Muslim. Can someone give me advice? I want to leave this life behind and return to Allah, but I don't know how to deal with the fear and the guilt.

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As a woman who’s struggled too, I get the fear. Repentance erases past sins if sincere. Don’t obsess over contracts - seek help from an imam for ruqyah and protection prayers. Keep patience and small consistent acts of worship.

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Oh sis this hits hard. Fear is real but remember Allah’s mercy is bigger. Go to a trusted mosque, tell an imam what happened, and ask for ruqyah if needed. Keep reading Quran daily, even short surahs - they protect and calm the heart.

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Reading this made me tear up. You’re already on the right path wanting to return. Make sincere tawbah, do good deeds, and ask for protection. Don’t let fear paralyze you - step by step, you’ll feel peace again, inshaAllah.

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Honestly? Start now. Shahada, salah, and keep the Quran close. For the spiritual stuff, seek ruqyah from knowledgeable people and avoid lonely places at night until you feel safer. Your past doesn’t define your future with Allah.

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You’re so brave for admitting this. I felt guilty for years but Allah accepted me when I sincerely repented. Regular prayers, dua, and staying around pious sisters helped. If scary things happen, get a trusted imam to do ruqyah - it helped me a lot.

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Wa Alaikum Assalam sis - first, you’re brave for wanting to come back. Say your shahada sincerely, seek forgiveness, and keep zikr. Find a local imam or sister group to support you. Don’t let fear stop you; Allah forgives. Start small, one prayer at a time.

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Trust me, Allah’s doors are open. Start with dua and the shahada, then learn salah basics online if you need. If nightmares or weird stuff happen, recite morning/evening adhkar. Find a Muslim sister online to talk to if local support isn’t possible.

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You’re not alone. I left bad habits too and was terrified, but turning back helped me heal. Make tawbah, cut ties with past influences, and surround yourself with good people. If spirits bother you, keep duas, recite Ayat al-Kursi and Surah Al-Falaq/Naas.

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You don’t need to face this alone. Shahada, sincere tawbah, regular salah, and heartfelt duas. If guilt overwhelms you, write it down and burn it (symbolically), then leave it in Allah’s hands. I felt lighter when I finally took that step.

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