Assalamu alaikum - Feeling Stuck in Between

Assalamu alaikum, sorry if this is a bit long. Lately I feel really lost and kind of disconnected, maybe spiritually. I’m not sure why. It’s like I’m in a limbo where nothing much happens - neither good nor bad - but I keep having this anxious sense that something will happen soon, and often I expect it won’t be good. I’ve always been an overthinker and tended toward negativity, but over the years I tried to turn that around. Alhamdulillah I got closer to Allah, started observing the fard more consistently, and that helped. But these past couple months I’ve been unsure of myself. My mind feels cluttered and tired, and I’m forgetful like I always have been. I pray and make dua every day for a specific matter, and ask Allah to increase my tawakkul, yaqeen, and taqwa. I try to have husn al-dhann of Him, but sadly I feel like I’ve drifted away, and I don’t know why. I’m mentally exhausted. I sometimes want to give up, but I don’t, because I still hold on to the hope that Allah will ease things for me. There are a few things I’m really asking Allah for right now. I’ve made dua for things before that didn’t happen and I accepted that, even when they were big. But the things I’m hoping for now feel very important to me, and I really wish Allah grants them. I feel guilty for even thinking like this - like I’m being ungrateful or untrusting - but a part of me worries they might never come to pass. These thoughts are draining. I’ve been in this waiting stage for so long where nothing really changes. Sometimes I’m thankful I’m not facing a huge test, because maybe I’m not ready, but not even small changes come. I’m tired of constantly having to be patient and optimistic when it feels like nothing is moving. I know that’s exactly when we should hold onto sabr and hope, and I am trying - honestly I am - but it’s hard when it feels stagnant. I don’t have answers. I don’t understand a lot right now. May Allah make things easy for all of us. Jazakum Allah khair.