Assalamu alaikum - A critique: How our community handles mental health needs to improve
Assalamu alaikum everyone, I want to start a conversation, so please share your experiences and thoughts whether you agree or not. I do believe that sometimes weak connection with Allah can affect our mental state, but mental illness can also be a test or a physical/psychological sickness sent by Him, like any other illness, meant to make us stronger in the long run, Insha'Allah. I’ve personally dealt with many mental health problems, and the one I’ll talk about here is a psychotic disorder. I had two major episodes that really affected me. In one I got extremely over-religious - I would take ghusl with scalding hot water and end up with burns, stay in constant sujood facing the Kaʿbah for days without food or breaks, just crying, and I spent all my savings on Islamic groups and religious items. I was completely out of touch with reality and became convinced Allah hated me; I felt His gaze as something terrifying. Even though I know intellectually Allah hates no one, hallucinations and delusions stopped me from accepting the truth. During that time many people in the community actually praised my devotion and treated me like an inspiration, which unintentionally kept me from getting proper help. I was lucky I found my way out of that episode somewhat on my own. The second episode was different but equally damaging: I became sure my soul had already been taken for judgment and my body was just a shell left on earth. I hallucinated a lot and believed jinn were hunting me. I stopped sleeping, eating, and drinking. I again turned to people in the community and received duas and reassurances that Allah doesn’t abandon people, and that I should be ashamed and just get closer to Him. Nobody told me to see a doctor or a professional. I avoided help until my body began to fail from lack of rest, food, and water, and I was eventually admitted to a psychiatric ward. Now I struggle a lot with my iman and my connection to Islam. I don’t blame the people who tried to help - I’m grateful they cared - but I do want to point out that the way the situation was handled prevented me from getting the medical care I needed sooner. This issue isn’t only about psychosis. People with depression, for example, are often told they aren’t close enough to Allah, when in many cases they already are close but are facing a test or an illness that requires professional help alongside spiritual support. I’d love to hear your opinions or similar experiences. Please encourage anyone in a bad state to seek professional help along with religious practice - I truly believe many issues can be helped that way, though not everything will be solved by faith alone, and that’s okay. JazakAllah khair.