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Assalam Alaikum - Need Advice About Moving for Work vs Staying for Community

Assalam Alaikum everyone. I’m really stuck and could use some outside perspectives because my thoughts are going in circles. I’m a revert living in Australia. I reverted in Jan 2022, so this upcoming Ramadan will be my fifth, inshaAllah. I come from a North Indian family and my parents don’t know - it’s still completely a secret. My dad is quite Islamophobic, so telling them right now isn’t really an option. I’m in my early to mid-twenties and at a point where marriage is something I’m thinking about seriously. Alhamdulillah I’m practising. I pray all my salah, fast Ramadan, etc. Over the last year, once I finally got access to a car, I slowly started building a small Muslim community. I go to gatherings sometimes and recently started Arabic and Qur’an classes with a teacher around my stage of life. I’d relied on transliteration for years, so learning properly feels like a big step and I’m very happy about it, alhamdulillah. About hijab: I wear it to uni, with friends, and whenever I’m away from home, but I don’t wear it around my family. Basically I put it on once I’m away from my street and take it off before I get home - part-time, secret hijabi. Every other fardh is fine, alhamdulillah. I pray, even sunnahs, and fast without alerting them. Here’s where I’m conflicted. I’ve been offered a job in a city about three hours away from home. The problem is there are far fewer Muslims there. Very little community, fewer classes, and almost no halaqahs or spaces for young adults. I tried messaging the local Islamic group about classes or events and they didn’t reply. Most activities seem aimed at kids. In contrast, where I am now has a lot more resources. If I move, I’d have more freedom day to day and wouldn’t have to hide my Islam as much. I could wear hijab properly, though I’d still be coming back to Sydney most weekends so I’d have to hide again then. It feels like partial relief, not full freedom. At the same time, I’d be leaving the small community I’ve worked hard to build here. It’s not huge, but it’s real. For most of my life, including after reverting, I lived without much Islamic support or Muslim friends. Now that I finally have people who understand my deen, I feel genuinely bad about leaving them. I’m not sure if that’s just emotional attachment or a valid concern. I also know myself enough to see that being somewhere with almost no Muslim presence affects my mental health long term. Plus, I’ll most likely move back in one to two years anyway, so anything I build there wouldn’t be stable. My other option is to stay and finish my Masters in Teaching, which I’ll complete around mid-2027, work part time, and aim to move out properly around 2028. That would mean continuing to hide my faith for another year or two. I’ve already been doing this for several years and have managed to pray consistently, fast Ramadan, and slowly grow in my deen. It’s also much easier to get married here because of the population, networks, and resources. My Arabic teacher has encouraged marriage and even tried to help me with the process. I know I’ll come back eventually no matter what. I don’t see myself settling long term where there’s almost no Islamic community. So I feel torn between staying here with anxiety and secrecy but having community and support, or moving for the job and having more outward freedom but risking isolation and stagnation in my deen. I’ve prayed istikhara but I still feel hesitant. My gut leans toward staying, but part of me worries I’m just being scared or missing an opportunity to gain independence sooner. Is it reasonable to have tawakkul and keep protecting my deen quietly for another year or two, given I’ve been consistent so far? Is it unwise to stay and risk getting caught when I could technically leave, even though I’ve managed fine until now? Is prioritising Islamic community alone a valid reason to turn down a job? And is it fair to feel this conflicted about leaving a community when I spent most of my life without one? Someone told me it’s better to stay anxious but supported than isolated and lose yourself, and that really stuck with me. I know it’s ultimately my decision, but I honestly don’t know if I’m making a huge mistake either way. What would you do in my position? JazakAllah khair 🤍

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I’d weigh mental health heavily. If isolation would hurt you, don’t gamble. Keep praying istikhara and talk to your Arabic teacher-they seem supportive and might help with decisions or networking.

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You’re allowed to protect your iman. Staying another year while finishing your Masters and keeping those connections sounds smart. Don’t guilt yourself for choosing safety and support.

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Short take: keep the community. You said you’ll move back later anyway, so use this time to strengthen your deen and marriage chances. Jobs will be around.

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Tbh I’d try the job only if there’s a clear plan to build community there. If it’s likely lonely and temporary, stay. You know yourself best, trust that gut.

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I get wanting independence, but part-time hijab around family is manageable if your iman is growing. I’d prioritize the support network-especially with marriage prospects nearby.

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Honestly, I’d stay. Building something real is rare and you’ve worked so hard for it. A year or two more of secrecy for lasting community sounds worth it to me. Sending dua for clarity ❤️

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I’d ask if the new place has any online groups or nearby cities with events. Maybe you could take the job and commute to community stuff sometimes. Compromise might work.

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As a fellow revert, staying where you have teachers and halaqahs saved me. It’s okay to choose growth over a faster independence. Not selfish at all. Dua for ease 🤍

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This hits deep. If your mental health thrives with your current circle, cling to it. Jobs come and go, community is harder to recreate. You can still plan moves later inshaAllah.

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