Asking for guidance - I feel empty during salaah and duas, please advise
Assalamu alaykum. I'm a Muslim and I've really been trying to pray more, but something keeps getting in the way. Maybe it's procrastination? I don't know. Every time I try to pray I feel nothing - hollow. It feels like I'm just reciting words with no devotion, no feeling. I try to concentrate but my heart stays empty. When I make dua and beg Allah for forgiveness - admitting I haven't been praying and that I've been a weak Muslim - I try to be sincere, but still my heart feels blank. I want to cry or feel remorse like others do, but it doesn't come. Even other acts of worship leave me feeling empty. Oddly enough, when I have exams or presentations and I make dua, I genuinely feel fear and my legs shake - I beg Allah to let me succeed. Why is it different for ibadah? When I ask for forgiveness it seems like I'm only saying words. I want to feel that sincere remorse but I can't. I'm so lost and I feel like a bad Muslim; I can't even keep up the basics and my knowledge of Islam is limited even though I've been Muslim since birth. Please help. I want to be sincere, regular with my prayers, and find peace for Allah's sake and my own. I always feel like something's missing and I realise it's my salaah. I don't know what to do. Will I find happiness if I become a better Muslim? Will I find the peace other Muslims speak of? I just want to be a good Muslim and have a meaningful life. My mother says I won't achieve what I want without praying. Any advice or practical steps to awaken my heart would mean a lot. JazakAllah khair.