As-salamu alaykum - Struggling with Salah, need advice

As-salamu alaykum everyone, I’m sharing this honestly because I’m not sure what else to do. I’ve been really struggling with salah. I truly want to pray, wallahi I do, but I keep falling short and it’s weighing heavily on my heart. I reverted about a year ago and started with so much excitement, alhamdulillah. My family has been supportive, and outwardly I don’t have trouble with modest dress - niqab/jilbab/hijab aren’t hard for me. But sometimes that actually makes me feel worse, because without prayer it feels like I’m just wearing clothes and not living the deen. I can look religious but inside I’m failing at the most basic pillar and that hurts. I get really jealous of people who seem naturally consistent with their worship. I’ve had “serious talks” with myself more times than I can count. Sometimes I even question why I converted if I can’t uphold salah - that thought kills me because I love Islam and I want a real connection with Allah. Life has been rough and my iman is up and down. I get so busy I forget Dhuhr or put it off until the time passes. Isha is hard too - I’m tired and lazy and keep finding excuses. At work it’s even tougher: there’s no prayer room nearby, and even though I’m not ashamed to pray, the staring makes me so awkward that I postpone… and then I don’t pray at all. Wudu feels like a big hurdle sometimes. I’ve tried forcing myself, but I get distracted or procrastinate and it’s become a habit. For a while it didn’t bother me and that scares me, because I know I was happier when I felt closer to Allah. Some days I manage one or two prayers and I’m really proud on those days. I make du‘a and talk to Allah, but I know it’s not the same as salah. I also feel very alone. I don’t have Muslim friends to encourage me, remind me, and help keep me accountable. I think that would help so much. I’m anxious about going to the masjid - I feel awkward and out of place, so I avoid it. I want to improve before Ramadan. If you’ve been through this, especially if you’re a revert, any advice, practical steps, or gentle reminders would mean a lot. Please keep me in your du‘as. May Allah make it easy for all of us. 🤍