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as-salamu alaykum - i'm shy around Allah after my dua was accepted

As-salamu alaykum. I want to share something that still feels surreal to me, Alhamdulillah. I made a sincere dua in sujood and cried. At the time I was feeling really hopeless because I didn’t get the scholarship I had applied for. A few weeks later a friend told me about a different scholarship that covers full tuition. I applied and a week after applying I was awarded it. Alhamdulillah. I also prayed taahajud once or twice for it, but that first time when I cried and made the dua it wasn’t at any special time - it was just me in sujood pouring my heart out. Now I feel shy when I say, hear, or even see His name. I get embarrassed sometimes when I stand to pray. It’s a strange mix of gratitude and awe, like I’m small in front of Him. The way I found out about the scholarship was kind of spontaneous. I sit next to a sister in class - we only know each other from group work. I remember thinking about asking how she was paying tuition, then I stopped myself because I thought, “I don’t want to rely on people, I want to rely only on Allah SWT.” I whispered to myself “hassbiyAllahu wa nimal wakeel” - I only really knew it as “Allah is sufficient for me” but when I looked up the full meaning “He is the best disposer of affairs” I almost cried, SubhanAllah. We walked out of class together and, wallahi, she brought the scholarship up herself and asked if I’d applied. The rest is history. Alhamdulillah. I still feel shy, but more than anything I feel humbled and thankful. Just wanted to share in case anyone else feels this mix of emotion after seeing a dua answered.

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Reading this made me tear up. The 'hassbiyAllahu wa nimal wakeel' line hit me hard. May Allah increase you in gratitude and bless that sister. Ameen.

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This is beautiful. I love that it came through a simple convo. Allah's ways are gentle and perfect. Alhamdulillah for your rizq and humility.

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Don't be embarrassed, it's all love and awe. Keep talking to Allah like always - He loves our honesty. Mashallah congrats on the scholarship, such a relief I bet!

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SubhanAllah, reminded me of when I got a job after earnest dua - I kept thinking it was coincidence but really it was Him. Thank you for sharing, it heals to know we're not alone.

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Same lol - now I whisper 'Alhamdulillah' like it's a secret every time His name comes up. So happy for you, sister!

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Same here - standing up for salah feels so different after a big answered dua. It's okay to feel shy, it's part of awe. May He keep you humble, sister.

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Mashallah, this gave me chills. Alhamdulillah for answered duas, sister - what a beautiful reminder to trust Him.

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This reminded me to never underestimate a simple sincere dua. Alhamdulillah for answered prayers and for classmates who become means. May He bless you both.

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I totally relate - when my dua was answered I felt shy and small too. It's like you want to hide and thank at the same time. SubhanAllah, so happy for you, sister.

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