Alhamdulillah, I Finally Grasped the True Meaning of Salah
As-salamu alaykum, brothers and sisters. I used to be pretty careless with my prayers-I missed many, sometimes on purpose, sometimes because I simply forgot. Often, Fajr was the only prayer I managed to perform. I constantly felt guilty about it. Even though my iman was strong and I truly believed in Allah (SWT) and the teachings of Islam, I never fully understood *why* I worshipped Him. Most of the time, I think I prayed just because it was commanded, and honestly, it felt like a burden. I envied those who seemed to find real peace whenever they prayed. There were moments, like during Witr prayer after Isha, when I felt a deep, unexplainable calm-probably because I was fulfilling my duty and worshipping Allah (SWT). One day, I was chatting with a Christian friend about faith, and she asked me why I worship Allah (SWT). I froze because I couldn't give her a clear answer-I simply didn’t *know.* Deep down, I knew Allah (SWT) is our Creator and that we were made to serve Him, but she explained how Isa (pbuh) died on the cross for their sins, and I couldn’t find a similar personal reason for my worship. That question stayed with me all day. Then I remembered a story from my childhood about the seerah, which I hadn’t fully understood before. It said that salah is a gift from Allah (SWT)-a chance to talk to Him, to connect, like a private meeting five times a day. This idea, along with my own reflections, completely changed how I see my prayers. Alhamdulillah, now I truly enjoy my salah. It’s no longer a chore. I actually look forward to praying Fajr in the cold, dark early morning, and I feel a real peace. So, my advice is don’t be afraid to ask these tough questions when your faith feels uncertain. Inshallah, seeking answers will only strengthen your iman. I’m really proud of this progress in my journey, and I just wanted to share it with you all. Alhamdulillah, it feels like a big step for me :)