A Sudden Renewal: My Unplanned Journey to Praying Five Daily Salahs

Salam everyone, Just want to share my story without making it too long. I was raised practicing Islam, but life threw so many challenges my way that I stopped praying regularly for over 15 years-occasionally for Jummah, sometimes not even that, and I had some bad habits too. Then, about a year and a half back, I went through the toughest period: I lost both my parents and my spouse, along with other blessings from back home. In just a few months, everything was gone. I felt so broken that I almost turned away from Islam completely, questioning why this would happen to someone who always tried to be kind and never intentionally hurt others. I was a devoted child, loving my parents deeply, and the losses one after another left me empty. I hadn’t fasted in years, but last Ramadan something changed. Suddenly, I felt a strong urge to pray Tahajjud, and I did, pouring out my heart in tears. This year, I managed to fast all of Ramadan (except a few days due to illness), though I slipped back into not praying afterward, entering another dark phase. This Ramadan, I started fasting again. Around then, I saw some inspiring reminders online from a respected scholar whose passing affected me deeply-it felt like losing family all over again. That night, overwhelmed with grief and reflection, I prayed Salatul Tawba, repenting for my past mistakes. Since that day, I’ve been praying all five salahs without fail. Now, if I miss even one, I feel uneasy, almost suffocated. I don’t pray to gain anything-just purely for worship. Even with late work nights, I fear sleeping through Fajr, and often I wake up for it naturally. I travel frequently, ending up praying in parking lots, rest areas, or outdoors in all weathers. I don’t fully understand how this shift happened so suddenly. Has anyone else experienced this? Any insights on what it might mean? Jazakum Allahu khayran for listening.