Finding Strength in Faith: Navigating Addiction as a Revert Muslim

Salaam everyone. I'm a revert to Islam, and I've been struggling with addiction-I actually found the deen while I was already in this battle. I'm trying my best to pray and make wudu, but sometimes it feels so hard, like it's not making a difference. I haven't told my parents about my struggles because I fear they might not understand; they still ask me to go to church, thinking it could help, and I just give a vague 'maybe' to avoid conflict. Deep down, I know what I'm doing is a sin, and I've even sought professional help, but it hasn't changed much. Every day feels heavy and discouraging. Has anyone else been through something similar? How do you hold onto your iman and keep going when it feels this tough?