A Sign That Made Me Smile Despite the Pain

Assalamu alaykum everyone, just wanted to share a moment that was kind of funny to me. So, my life has been one test after another-like most of us, right? Mental health struggles, ADHD, borderline personality, three physical illnesses, homelessness, prison, even doing self-ruqyah for sihr and jinn… if there’s a hardship, I’ve tasted it and am still in it. Recently got a proper diagnosis for my mental stuff, which helped me understand myself better, alhamdulillah. But the meds I started a month ago gave me crazy insomnia-like, sleeping pills did nothing-so I was up for days. Went for a smoke and waswas hit hard: "Forget hell in the akhirah, you’re living in hell right now." I tried to brush it off, but it kept nagging. So I just muttered, "You know what? I am in hell," while I was smoking. Then I put the lighter on my lap and didn’t notice till my shirt caught fire! Got a small burn on my hand, but alhamdulillah I put it out fast. I just laughed-it was like Allah was saying, "Slow down, buddy, things can get way worse." These harsh tests remind me that we’re here to be tried, to see who has the best deeds. As Allah says: "And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient." I haven’t been very patient, but in sha Allah I’ll keep trying, because what else can we do? One blessing in constant trials is that I barely think about fun or worldly stuff-I’m just stuck in worship, dua, dhikr, or reading ruqyah for hours, because if I stop, things spiral fast.