Ina jin kamar na rasa bege

Assalamu alaikum. Tun Maris 2025, wata goma sha bakwai kenan ba ni da aiki. Na aika aikace-aikace da dama-aikin yi, PhD, kungiyoyi masu zaman kansu, har da kantunan sayar da littattafai-amma babu abin da ya yi nasara. Na yi tambayoyi da yawa kuma koyaushe ana mayar da ni. A wani sabon tambayi da na yi, na kai matakin karshe ina da matukar fata, sai suka ce an dakatar da matsayin. Sai kawai na fashe; na gaji sosai, kuma gaskiya, na rasa dukkan bege da kuzarin ci gaba da nema, aikace-aikace, tambayoyi, yin fata, da sauransu. Ina yin Tahajjud kowane dare, ina karatun Al-Qur’ani, ina yin addu’a, ina bayar da Zakka da Sadaka-na gwada komai. Na yi imani da Allah, amma na gaji matuka. Na kuma sha wahalar zuciya sosai wajen neman mijin kirki, kuma yana da matukar wahala samun miji nagari. Ban san abin da zan yi kuma ba. A kwanakin nan, ina yawan tambayar Allah kuma ina jin gajiya da rudani. Ina jin kamar babu abin da ya rage mini. Don Allah, duk abin da zai iya taimakawa...